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How I Knew I Was Different: A Reflection
Using the information available through the use of various resources, I was allowed to understand myself as a person trying to grow and thrive in an ever-changing world. Being aware of the vast complexities of cognition, perception, and sensation, I know that I can’t be one-hundred-percent correct in my self-analysis. However, it is fair to say that while I can’t be completely correct, I am only indicating how I take in the world, and what it is that my senses pick up from my environment. My personal development is based on what I see, what I hear, and how I feel as a response to that.
Consistently, from the beginning of my cognitive development, I felt outside of myself. There was this constant need for an in-depth understanding of my existence, my role, and the role of others. The behavior of others was never consistent with what I understood as the default social response. It was an unending analysis of people that I used to guide me to mold myself in accordance with what was widely accepted as normal.
My efforts to narrow down the ideal behavior prevented me from knowing anything about myself. The world was being taken in at an excess, intimidating me from exploring it further. Once finding a balance between the inner workings of my environment and acting as my authentic self, it’s disrupted by the transition into a new environment with…
